How many times have I said I wanted something to occur (a result) and found myself without the defined result? Too many times to write about. The other day it occurred to me that I am probably not asking myself the right question. Yes, I want to eat healthier, exercise more, drink more water, recreate in nature, and give my mind and body the gifts it needs to be happier but I found myself wondering how committed I really am to the process of helping that happen. How committed am I to the process of changing? I want a quick fix because I am not a patient person and the process of change requires patience, diligence and a commitment to embrace the uncomfortable thoughts and feelings that occur while I work for a change (result.) Perhaps embracing and accepting the process is what I have missed for so long. I am asking myself, how committed am I to the process required to have a desired result?
Whenever I ride my horse, Cowboy, I am forever hunting for the balance point, or what I have heard referred to as the “sweet spot,” a place where my horse and I are in perfect harmony and moving as one. It sounds so kumbaya-ish but for any dance to be graceful and fluid in it’s motion, the dancers must be balanced and in harmony with one another.
This balance point is what I strive for as I practice to instill a sense of care and attention to the body that I am. We all know people who spend many hours and dollars attending to their bodies and have little time for other interests. Then there is the other group of folks who deny their body any care other than the basic activities that allow one to function.
Why is it so easy for us to care for our homes, our jobs, other people, our animals and have nothing (time, energy, money, desire) for our own bodies? Perhaps it is because our body’s are so efficient and require very little from us in order to survive. Perhaps we learn to ignore our bodies because they heal so well and can be taken for granted for a period of time, until they can’t anymore. We have the most amazing autonomic nervous system and for all intensive purposes, don’t need to spend one thought on how our body processes occur in order for us to survive.
Finding my balance point means that I strive everyday to practice activities that go beyond the basic survival level. My daily goals involve levels of responsibility, wherein my body gets to have attention and my choices about how I can treat it with proper food/nutrition, exercise, rest, meditation, massage, body work, oils, etc. help me move from the basic survival level to the responsible self-care level that satisfies my desires.
Can you sit quietly for 5 min and notice how many thoughts you have that support your well-being? If your like me, it takes an amazing amount of focus to be still and observe the stream of thoughts in any given moment. The first thing I notice is that I judge every thought and decide if it has any value. When I purposefully choose to let go of the judgments and return to the practice of observing, I realize my mind has many thoughts and I tend to believe those that are not based on truth but my perception of what is true in any given moment. If I am to change and become more of who I really am, I need to examine which thoughts I have made into beliefs for those are the thoughts that I have focused on, found evidence to support, and spent a life time proving. Those thoughts might be mere lies and distortions which means I have been living my life believing in the lies instead of being open to any other possibility.